Story..
Thursday, November 22, 2007
She is a person who is lack of self-confidence,
even thou her laughters were loud enough to cover them up.
She has alot of secrets that none knew.
She hide from her family,
her friends,
her collegues, everyone.
She was depressed with life.
Because life was never fair from the family she came from
She met him while she was seventeen.
He treated her well.
She thought he was the love of her life.
He made her feel good,
treated her like a princess,
like every girl wants.
He made her feel that life was filled with colors instead of black and white.
He made her feel that she could be just herself when she was with him,
full of confident.
2 yrs later,
the love they had faded,
all the promises made were broken.
Her lack of confident and depression silently crawl back into her life.
He had someone eles.
He was a two-timer.
She still love him.
He said, his girlfriend treated him badly,
yet he didnt want to ditch
her(his girlfriend). He asked her back.
She agreed.
It was the foolish thing that she has ever done:
Agreeing to be his affair.
Things were nv fair.
The pain could kill her.
She starts to mutilate herself,
not to threaten to die so that he could return.
That was her way of exterminate her pain out.
Nobody understand her.
She didnt bothered to explain.
She came into her life.
Guided her back into the path.
Life was never fair to
her and her.
She lost
her to cancer at a young age.
She mutilates herself again.
Hoping that cancer kills her instead.
Every scar is burning white hot.
Nobody sends cares abt her.
Others thought that she could gradually stands up.
But she didnt.
There were times,
late at night,
where she still weeps for
her.
Yet the rest thought that she moved on.
Nobody thought she was capable of such feelings.
She is tired.
The death that she couldnt cope with.
Her friend once said that she needed help for her mutilating problem.
She thinks its perfectly ok.
Her way of expressing her anger, hurt and misery.
Then,
She fell in love with her.
She thought she was love of her life.
She was a girl, had similar background,
She thought she wouldnt hurt her anymore.
History repeated itself.
She grew up, knew how to figure this out.
She moved on.
Now,
She fell in love with him.
But he love
her.
In his eyes, there is only
her.
One and only
her.
There wasnt any space for her.
No matter how much effort she is putting in for him
He only sees her.
She must know that even when he dont have
her,
He wont be able to have her.
But she wasnt able to convince herself to do that.
He puts her thru white hot pain,
all over again.
Just like how she felt before.
Why dont someone save her?
Why dont someone make her life fair enough?
Why dont someone stop her from crying?
The story of her.
Brought to you with tears and blood.
雁 blogged on the 11/22/2007 11:38:00 PM.
