melancholy-euphoria

Wonder Records + Random-ness

2007-12-13T11:21:00.000+08:00

Today's entry is total random-ness.

First of all,
For the past week,
It has been like a emotional roller coaster ride.
Like extremely happy, then extrememly high
then extremely upset.
But mostly upset.
:/

Plus i haven ate like a proper meal since last sat.
I could like count out the stuff i ate.
The yellow beans from Wanqing.
The cute teddy bear biscuits from Eda
The rice my mum bought,
which end up in the toilet bowl.
Then ytd when i finally could eat something nice,
with my frends.
My brother spoilt everything.
The moment i reach home, he yell out to me and got me to look at the clip his frend sent him.
It was a clip from PETA,
showing how bad ppl peel skin off animal.
OMFG.
Dont make me repeat wat i saw.
The moment i saw the clip, all the food came out.

I dont usually vomit when i watch tv.
Ok. Maybe when i watch Fear Factor.
When they are eating creepie crawlies.

The image is still terribly stuck in brain.
Msn me if you want the link to clip.
But wat i advise is watch it on a empty stomach.

***

I caught Enchanted last tuesday.
It is the nicest movie ever.
LOL.

That is bcuz i like Patrick Dempesy.
HUR HUR.
I have nv imagine him outside Grey's Anatomy.
Nv ever imagine how he deal with kids.
He is so great in Enchanted.
I even got the OST. lol
I dont mind watching it again.

Perharps, its because i always like watching Disney's musical and fairytale.
Perharps, its because i still believe that fairytales do exist.

***

LOL.
Then the last last Tuesday i went Terminal 3 one day tour with MH.
It was like so long ago de things loh. ><

Here are some picturesssss..

Inside the transit hall. got 小桥流水 wor.

I forgot where this was taken.. :x

At the luggage belt..

***

This was the marcaroon-cake thingy i bought for Dee.
LOL.
When i open up the box, it was like upside down.
The raspberry wasnt even on the top when i open up.
But even thou it was not excatly in the perfect shape,
Its the nicest marcaroon-cake thingy ever!!
It was at least 2 times bigger than the normal marcaroons Jamie used to bake.
So nice loh.
But the staff at Bakerz's Inn abit zzzz.
*roll eyes

***

The xmas tree is at my house. Its even taller than me loh.
Pardon the bag yah. Belongs to my brother. LOL

*

There are things i canot say here.
So, Lingling faster n complete my wordpress leh.
很辛苦 de leh..
Canot blog my guts out. :/

我不知道要这样形容我现在的心情啦。
七上八下的。
如果真有那么辛苦，是不是应该放弃了呢？
可是，我就是放不下。
真的好像毒药一样。
有些时候真的很想把这里的东西和感情都放下，
让侯跑到非洲去。

*

Lets end this entry slightly different.
LOL.

I know im lame.
The following picture will be even lamer.

I took the picture while i was on my dad's car.

It isnt what you think, not the way you think it is.

2007-12-08T17:58:00.000+08:00

It isnt what you think, not the way you think it is.
Instead is the other way round.

I dont usually blog twice in a day.
But this few days has been v.tough on me.
If i dont blog,
i most probably will start to do ~~"silly things"~~

SIGH.

How do you tell someone that they are your troubles and the reason you cry?

Hais.

The same old phrase again.

I WAN MY WORDPRESS!!

6 Vodka + Beer

2007-12-08T10:09:00.000+08:00

6 vodka + beer and im still not drunk.

i wanna be drunk.
For the past two daying, i have been crying and slping at abt 4am 5am
Suprisingly i still can come work today.
slightly late.

I deserve a pat on my shoulder for such stunning energy.
zzzz.

I wanna blog my guts out.
But apparantly i cant.
I need my wordpress, like for this instance.

Im hoping for a tv to crash on me now.

So i die.

Or like from HEROS, the haitian could extract memories like worms out of your brain.

I dunno wat to blog.
I dunno wat words to descride the feeling im having now.
Its like wat Hermonie said to Ron, girls doesnt have the emotional range of a teaspoon.

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I loved this song alot.
Truth by Yuna Ito ft. Reira in NANA2

Truth
作詞: Mami Takubo, Narumi Yamamoto 作曲: Koji Goto

Let me stay with you
傷つけあうのに
何故こんなに
求めてしまうの
Don’t you know my heart
素直になれずにいたの
ただひとつの愛が欲しいのに…

めぐり逢えた奇跡を信じて
奏でて行きたい
あなたへのmelody
もしもすべてを
失くしてしまっても
この思いは永遠なの
It’s my Truth

Believe in yourself
つまずいたときも
歩いてきた　涙を拭って
Open up your heart
想い出の先にきっと
明日という　希望があるから

Give me your Loneliness
and I’ll give you my Tenderness
忘れないでいて
あの日みた夢を
離れていても
この胸にいつでも
感じている
あなただけを
It’s my Truth

散らばる星が囁きかける
戸惑う心を照らしながら
出逢いと別れ　人は探すの
いつか結び合える強い絆を

世界中の悲しみをすべて
受け止めてもいい
あなたの為なら
世界中から置き去りにされても
その瞳を信じている
It’s my Truth

*

Let me stay with you
Why do I want you so much
When we only hurt each other?
Don't you know my heart
I couldn't be honest with myself
I just want one love...

I want to believe in the miracle of our meeting
And play a melody for you
Even if I lose everything
This love is forever
It's my truth

Believe in yourself
You walked even while stumbling, so wipe your tears
Open up your heart
Ahead of the memories is a hope called tomorrow

Give me your loneliness
And I'll give you my tenderness
Don't forget the dream we had that day
Even when we're apart
I can always feel you in my heart
It's my truth

The scattered stars whisper
Illuminating my hesitation-filled heart
Through meetings and partings, people search
For the strong bond that will one day bind them

I would take all the world's sorrow
On myself for you
Even if the world leaves me behind
I believe in your eyes
It's my truth

*

我快要吐了！

So many things so little time and so little money..

2007-11-28T14:26:00.000+08:00

I have like so many things for this upcoming Dec.
Yet i have so little time and so little money.
I practically like spend my pay in my mind before i even got it.
LOL.

Im having chalet for no particular reason,
from the 14th to 17th Dec.

Then Xmas is coming.
Need to buy lots of present.
Bczu Xmas is coming.

Celerbration Xmas Eve with Mh and etc.
BCUZ XMAS is coming!!

Hahaha.
I always love Xmas and Chinese New year when i was a kid.
This are two favourite holiday of the year.
Bcuz Xmas is coming.
/me totally in a happy mood now.
Bcuz Xmas is coming.

Then on the 30th Dec im going to Shanghai!
8Days Shanghai tour.

So many things, so little time.
So little money.

Lets hope i strike 4D. XD

Bcuz Xmas is coming!!!

*

Some random stuff.
I was deleting my sms yesterday, bcuz my inbox was too full.
I realise i recieved alot 4D sms and Toto sms loh.
After i apply for my 3G sim card and Auto Roaming plan,
i have been recieving them.
And to my surprise,
I keep them. Alot of them. ><

Another random stuff.
What are your fears?

Some of fears.

a. I have to close the windows b4 i go to bed.
Bcuz my dad said so. (tats lame.)
My fear is that if someone tried to kill herself by jumping out of the window.
Im afraid that the body would caught hold of my arm,
while closing the window. YEEKS!
Then the corpse will pull me down too.
Every single time i close the window,
I will think of this. XD

b. You know, in coffeeshops, they always have TV hanging from the ceiling.
For their customers to watch.
My fear is that, whenever i walk under the TV, it will fall on me.
Crushing me like a pancake.

c. Walking on glass floor. I will tend to walk on the edge,
so afraid that the glass will break and i will fall.
Im afraid of heights. XD

d. beetle stuck on to my hair. i know, this sounds silly.
But my house always have beetles.
They tend to fly towards my hair like bee to honey.

e. Another fear is that whenever i have to deal with a mircowave,
im afraid that it will blow up right in front of me,
if i put a non-mircowavable plate in there.
I always double,
in fact,
triple check with my mum if that particular plate is safe.
Till my mum got fed up with me.
One thing that my mum dont know is that, when i switch on the mircowave,
i will walk out of the kitchen on purpose, so that i dont get blasted.
LOL.

So, these are my fears.
Now im vulnerable.
><

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I wan to change to Wordpress leh!
So i can lock my entries. And only limit to certain ppl.
Sigh.
But the layout suxs.
But i think i can cope with it.
Till then i dont think i wanna blog in details here.

SIGH.

Story..

2007-11-22T23:38:00.000+08:00

She is a person who is lack of self-confidence,
even thou her laughters were loud enough to cover them up.
She has alot of secrets that none knew.
She hide from her family,
her friends,
her collegues, everyone.
She was depressed with life.
Because life was never fair from the family she came from
She met him while she was seventeen.
He treated her well.
She thought he was the love of her life.
He made her feel good,
treated her like a princess,
like every girl wants.
He made her feel that life was filled with colors instead of black and white.
He made her feel that she could be just herself when she was with him,
full of confident.
2 yrs later,
the love they had faded,
all the promises made were broken.
Her lack of confident and depression silently crawl back into her life.
He had someone eles.
He was a two-timer.
She still love him.
He said, his girlfriend treated him badly,
yet he didnt want to ditch her(his girlfriend).
He asked her back.
She agreed.
It was the foolish thing that she has ever done:
Agreeing to be his affair.
Things were nv fair.
The pain could kill her.
She starts to mutilate herself,
not to threaten to die so that he could return.
That was her way of exterminate her pain out.
Nobody understand her.
She didnt bothered to explain.

She came into her life.
Guided her back into the path.
Life was never fair to her and her.
She lost her to cancer at a young age.
She mutilates herself again.
Hoping that cancer kills her instead.
Every scar is burning white hot.
Nobody sends cares abt her.
Others thought that she could gradually stands up.
But she didnt.
There were times,
late at night,
where she still weeps for her.
Yet the rest thought that she moved on.
Nobody thought she was capable of such feelings.
She is tired.
The death that she couldnt cope with.

Her friend once said that she needed help for her mutilating problem.
She thinks its perfectly ok.
Her way of expressing her anger, hurt and misery.

Then,
She fell in love with her.
She thought she was love of her life.
She was a girl, had similar background,
She thought she wouldnt hurt her anymore.
History repeated itself.
She grew up, knew how to figure this out.
She moved on.

Now,
She fell in love with him.
But he love her.
In his eyes, there is only her.
One and only her.
There wasnt any space for her.
No matter how much effort she is putting in for him
He only sees her.
She must know that even when he dont have her,
He wont be able to have her.
But she wasnt able to convince herself to do that.
He puts her thru white hot pain,
all over again.
Just like how she felt before.

Why dont someone save her?
Why dont someone make her life fair enough?
Why dont someone stop her from crying?

The story of her.
Brought to you with tears and blood.

樂

2007-11-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

"樂" 这个字是一个很奇妙的字。
一讲到它，
大家都会把它和 "快" 想到一块。
变成了 "快樂"
可是，又有谁是真的快樂？
又有谁真得明白快樂？

"樂" 这个字，
可以分成两个部分来解读。
上部份，和 “木” 的下部分。
而 “木” 的那两撇，
就好想人的手一样。
很辛苦的在扛起上面沉重的东西。
很害怕上面的 “快樂”会掉下来。
很害怕“快樂”就这样从手中逃走。

"樂" 的上部份，
也分成了3段。
也就是说，快樂的来源有3个部分。
友情，亲情和爱情。
可是他们都分得很开。
根本没有办法容在一起。
只有外在的力量才能凝结他们。
快樂要靠自己的力量，
也是要有外在的成全和帮助才能达到的。

要快樂，真的是一件很难的事。
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I tell u!!
OMG LOR!
yesterday i went Bugis with Mh and Mag,
and we went to the arcade.
So Mh and Mag was busy playing with the 投篮机。　
I saw a girl who LOOK EXCATLY like Mika Nakashima(中岛美加)
in NANA.

FYI,the picture above is Mika Nakashima(中岛美加) in NANA
Somemore she has a lip piercing loh.
I would die to have a gf that looks like her + lip piercing.

Throughout, i was staring at her
At a glimsp, i caught her looking back,
And i got a murderous stare. LOL.
Then she went to hug the other girl.
So i guess, she's attached.

Aw. So sad.
Now the image of her is stuck in my brain.
Like an axe stuck on a tree.

Upcoming Events.

2007-11-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

Upcoming Events for my boring life to look out for.

Er.
Before i began, i have just received a damn terrible news.

MY BOSS KNOW THE EXSISTENCE OF MY BLOG!

im not quite sure if she does read abt them.
But apparantly the news,
of she knowing that there is such thing call blogs.
Esp mine,
Bcuz i usually rant abt her and the damn company.
No names mentioned thou.
Will i get sued?

*shrugs

I gotta think of an alternative here.
Its like i have spies here.

Back to the Upcoming events of my ultra boring life,
Christmas!!

Even thou,im not a christian nor my family is.
We do celerbrate Xmas every year.
without fail.
I think its a festive season,
well,
to celerbrate the love for your loved ones,
by showering them with presents.

Im the one who usually shop for the presents,
as in, i dont believe in giving cash,
unless i really have to.
Because i like opening surprises,
I believe everyone does.
Who doesnt?
So it is always nice to see someone's expression when receiving presents.

Besides the usual celebration at home,
there is another plan.

Which includes the following:

Gary Moh, Ling ling , Mh , Magmag + Me
(mayb Tziying, cuz she v.bz.)

Here is a suggested celebration we shld use,

If all of us do AM shift,
We could go catch a Xmas movie.
We could go East Coast Park to do some shouting.
(i know i sound insane)
Afterwhich, we could join Changi Airport one nite tour.
We could do potluck for our meals.
I could bring sherperd's pie or baked rice
Lingling could bring turkey.
Then someone provide us with things like ham, drinks and utensils.

As for exchanging of presents,
I was thinking,
I buy for each of us,
instead of each of us buy 1,
then pick one out of the pile.
Then each present should be at least SGD10.
No max. But min. SGD10

So to the above names mentioned,
pls kindly make urself free on Xmas eve,
that means pls take the morning shift.
Then off on 25th Dec.

Those who are not mention above
and yet wanna join,
Do msn me.
But,
subject to approval yah?
XD

2nd Upcoming Event,

Genting Trip in Jan.
Just on our own.
The same old gang
But mayb minus away lingling.
Bcuz of her mum. :/

So,
PEOPLE!
pls, settle a date so that we could take leave.
Once leave settle.
Ask tziying to take free for us.
Otherwise, we could just take the Buy 1 Free 1 promo.
kekeke.

Bkk trip. Mayb Jan or March
What i suggest is that we straight away confrim a date
and then,
We will booked on a budget carrier.
Then we will apply leave.

Gary shouldnt be a problem.
The biggest problem will be me, mh n ll.
Because we need to face TT and the mommy.
But once we confrim the flight,
we cant change,
they will have to let us go.
LOL.

So people,
we have so much to complete.
Im open to suggestions,
We get gary to go online,
Then we could confrence chat over in msn. XD

*

A list of things to get. MUZ!

- A new Ipod earpiece
(have been saying this since July.)

- Greys Anatomy Season 3 DVDs
- Heros Season 1 DVDs
- A lifetime of Secrets (Book)

Xmas is coming people!
Its a time to share!
:3
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I love this song alot..

歌名：单生潜逃
歌手：戴佩妮

PS:我想我真的忘了,然而我不够坚强
我没有你想像中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装不是吗
我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌
我也和你一样曾经年少轻狂受了一点伤
我们都是一样相信永远不远但坚持却有点难
就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的拷这点我善于的微笑
通往没有你的轨道
就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷这点我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃
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Sometimes,
Somethings are just a facade.
I just recently found out that
the popular guy at my old sch,
He used to be so glam and out of reach,
But he has his flaws,
he betrayed his family, and haven been toking to them for almost a yr.

So, it is just all a facade.
全部都是，我们想要看得假象。
都并不是真实。

im backkk from Hokkaido! 我回来了！！

2007-11-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

Im back.
Lots to say.
Lots of thoughts during the past 7Days.
But really when i were to put my thoughts into words,
i seem to lose them somehow.
I think im going to cry at the end of the entry.
I will try not to.

*

A grp photo taken at Lake Toya.

I took back the Yukata cuz i like the colors. Very inspriring.

Some of the stuff i bought back. Some. There is more than that. X:

More Hokkaido Pictures.

*

I went to Hokkaido with a rather dreadful feeling.
Hating that i have to go alone,
A rather event-full of trip i must say.
Shortage of money.
Face to face arguement with my so-called Manager.
Last minute customer drop out.

But it turn out rather well over there.
I've got a very nice guide.
And i've got very nice customers.

我到了日本，就生病了。
我想，是因为生了病，我才没有空去在乎我会不会寂寞。
那 7 天的每一个早上，
我都超不想起床的。
眼睛中的像鲍鱼一样，
鼻子 + 耳鸣跟设么一样。。
鼻子还留鼻血

我心想，
我是何苦leh..
还不是要工作。

客人们，都觉得我们去带团，
好像都很好玩。
可是，
我都跟他们说，
我来，
自是想来 gain experience,
学者如何去待人处事，
多认识一些人而已。
病了都还要工作。

那，他们来玩，
有家人，有爱人陪着。
他们看到好玩，好吃，好用的，
都有人可以和他们分享。
可是啊。。
我只有我自己。
我要找谁和我分享。

我也只能，一天到晚跟自己打 OS.

但是，
我必须说，
我的客人和导游都对我很好，
知道我病了，
都很关心和体谅我。
我非常的感谢他们。

人。
本来就是个孤独的个体活。
应该要尝试着去适应 - 孤独。
可是我就是怕。

*

我到了北海道，
看到了很多她会喜欢的东西。
我本来都想买的。
可是，我没有。
我想买的唯一理由，就是想要讨好他而已。
因为，他喜欢她。喜欢到要死。
因为我自私，所以我没有买。
我没有我想象中的宽容。

*

我上一次到日本，
到了浅草寺，
求了神名，让我在到日本。
果然，我又回到了日本。
又到了浅草寺。
可是却求到了一个凶签。
签上说的是：

“我等的人不会来，我等的机会不会到，我等的船不会到，我盖的房子会应为天灾人祸而失去。”

我觉得，好像都是真的一样。
不自是感情方便，
我一想到，我明年如果，
不能回到学校，
我想我会疯掉。

很想很想逃离这个地方啦。
饶了我。
让我走。
每一天要装开心，会很累的。
我好像一错再错。

let me just fade away.
turn into bubbles.

Going off alone for 7days

2007-10-24T00:08:00.000+08:00

I hate it when i have to travel alone
The loneliness alone will eat you alive.
You see all the good things yet you cant share it with your friends, your loved ones, your family.
Sometimes to the extend,
I dont feel like going.

Imagine having to wake up alone,
sit on the cold toilet bowl.

That is very lonely.
Somehow, im depressed abt this trip.
Not as enthu as before.

The very 1st thot is,
how m i going to fight thru this 7days.
On the very 1st day,
My thot: Still got 6 more days. So long~
When you are lonely, the day seem longer.

Sigh.

HELP!

I fucking hate my company!!!

2007-10-22T10:22:00.000+08:00

I fucking hate my company.

How can they be that not understanding?

I NEED MONEY YAH!
YOU KNOW WHAT IS HARD CORE GREEN CASH??

This will be the last time i tour lead for them.

I will resign after this.

What kind of fucking company is this?

I dont believe with my abt 2 yr experience,
I cant find another similiar job.

What sort of company is this?
They dont even have freedom of speech.

WTF
WTF!!
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The rest that im posting
is for the sake of posting.
Because i took the pictures le.
I dont want them to go to waste.
I really no mood.

I only packed 3 winter jackets , 2 pair of jeans, 1 winter cap and 1 scarf. And its 3/4 full.

My mum's spag~
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I still fucking hate F*** S****

Im going to Hokkaido!!!

2007-10-20T10:43:00.000+08:00

Im going to Hokkaido this coming wednesday!!!

WHOOPEEEEEEEEE!!
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我是真的，真的喜欢他。
还是，我只是想要有像他这样爱着她的人，
来爱我。

傻傻分不清除了我~

Do i have a cockroach life or face or WHAT?!?!?!

2007-10-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

I fucking fucking hate cockroach ok?
If i see another one today,
im going to murder them.

Last nite,
was my 4th continuous nite sighting a fugly cockroach.
First it was Wednesday nite,
i saw a bady cockroach at my office.

Then..
On thursday nite, i happily came home from KBOX.
After my bath, A FUCKING FLYING COCKROACH ATTACK ME!!!
I didnt kill it as my parents were all asleep.
Noone could kill it for me.
And then it escaped.
On friday nite,
It flew out again, from the place where it disappeared.

SHIT U!!!!!

I got my dad to kill it for me.

Then last nite,
it was like 4am.
I was watching happily my rugby match
And England was winning France at the very last few mins,
Something was wrong, i heard a fluttering noise.
I turned my head over,
and there i saw something black brownish thing was flying around.
Before i knew it..

THE FUCKING FLYING COCKROACH IS FLYING TOWARDS ME!

Because of a fucking hideous dirty thing~
I woke my dad up just to kill the cockroach for me.

IM GOING TO WIPE OUT ALL COCKROACHES IN MY HOUSE.
IM GOING TO MURDER THEM ALL.

Even if u are that cute, i still HATE YOU!!!!!!!!

Updates abt cruise trip + Complains.

2007-10-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

I am damn furious abt my company.
I hate it when ppl take away my freedom
and my freedom of speech.

Yesterday, some new rules were formed.
in which i find it v.ridiculous.

We were to record every phonecalls we recived.
Not only tabulate the amt of calls,
we were to record down their names + contacts
and the content of the call.

It is a real hassle, i tell you.
We dont even have time to serve walk-ins,
let alone record the calls.
And if i were to fake the record,
Nobody knows loh.

NVM. at most i fake it.
Whats more ridiculous is that,
WE were not to speak ill of management staff.
Otherwise, they will terminate us.
This one really make me 火大！

It is totally like propaganda loh.
很大大力的在洗脑 loh.

First of all,
Mouth is mine loh.
I can say watever i like.
If i were to come home, and speak ill of them
to my parents,
Are them going to do something to me and my parents?

Secondly,
i dont believe only me and only us
spoke ill of the management staff loh.
Even some of the higher level staff, they do speak ill of others loh.
So, is the company going to fire everyone?
If you did nth wrong, y are u so afraid of ppl saying you?
Furthermore, you r the boss.
Where is your 气量？ in handling such things?

Thirdly,
Nobody in this world has the rest of the world liking them de loh.
As a human, there will be others who like and dislikes you.
Even for Britney Spears, Brad Pitt, Zoe Tay and Fann Wong,
there are ppl who dislikes them and speak ill of them,
Even i can understand such theory,
I dont understand whats wrong with them.
Or iszit better that we pretend we like you,
but in actual fact, deep down inside, we hate you.
Such hyprocites stuff,
I wont do it.

Find some other staff to suck up to you.

Besides,
they said we were not to speak ill of them.
They did not mention that we cant blog abt them.
:)

At most i tender my resignation.
__________________________________________________

Updates abt cruise.
hahahaha.
Its all abt food~

eeeyer. not nice de loh i tell u

From left to right.
My paternal grandparents, My dad, My maternal grandma and my mommmmmmmy~~~

My dad and my grandad.
If they knew i post this online, they are going to murder me!
LOL.
They take pictures same pattern wan loh. Stand till so straight!

Random picture~ XD

All the yummy food in K.L !!
We disembark the cruise when it reach K.L,
I didnt manage to shop much, due to my father,
making sure i didnt overspent! ><
I only manage to buy a top and a pair of flip flop.
Missed out too much. But the food is yummmmy.
Way better than the one provided on board.

*

Look at how succulent fat and juicy that scallop is?
My favourit-est singular food item on earth.
yummmmmmmmmmmmmy~
My mommmy had the lamb shank. It was v.nice too~

Overall,
It was a nice try.
If you had extra budget,
You could try having the life of,
eat.sleep.shop.eat.sleep.shop.gamble.eat.sleep.eat.gamble.

LOL.

<3 Grey's Anatomy Season 4 + Private Practice.
:3

Happy 21st Birthday!

2007-10-06T11:15:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!

Well..
I have alot of things to say
and alot of ppl thanked.

First of all,my family,
They are like my rubbish bin
(in a good way)
Be it good or bad stuff, they will still tolerate you.
Whatever things i "dumped" in,
they will take it as it is,
Bcuz they treat it as their family.

Secondly, my grandparents.
Both paternal and maternal.
Sometimes i tend to be a little loud
and inpatient with you guys,
but you guys still accept me as wat im.
Still treating me like a princess.

Thirdly, my collegues.
Esp Candice,Yanhui,MingHuey,Jialing,Gary,Mag and Tziying.
With all the battles and backstabbing in such a big company,
Plus a rather terrible boss.
Im very glad that i have this bunch of ppl by my side.
Otherwise, all this bad stuff would have eaten me alive,
or at the least, made me resign.
So, i thank all of you.

Last but not least,
All those who have backstabbed me, who looked down on me,
Be it friends, collegues or even relatives.
Well..
I thank you too. Even thou i might hate you.
But all the backstabbings, all the bad stuff you did to me,
Made me strive harder and stronger.
So, thank you for making who im today.

I must say..
This is the most happiest birthday i have ever been thru.
Even thou it was a rather quiet one.
Without all the huge and grand 21st Birthday celebration like other kids of the same age.

Being able to bring my paternal and maternal grandparents + my parents and myself for a cruise tour,
Being able to adpot a child, giving monthly allowance to him
is a great achievement for me.
to me, that is a sort of celerbration too.
Seeing them happy = me happy. ^^

A small gathering with some frends, and my family.
Hee. :3

Met Minghuey, Mag and Gary for dinner + supper
by right that Lingling and Tziying shld turn up de loh.
BAD!
That was because Mag is leaving the company,
:(
We spend the nite at Changi Airport,
doing stupid stuff,
Like taking the skytrain to and fro T1 - T2
Racing on the Luggage Cart etc.

Let the pictures do the talking~

Gary Moh loh. Pretending that he is flying to BKK. On TG. With no luggage on the luggage cart. -_________-||

Mag, she is going to Amsterdam. XD

im going to Portland. HAHAHAHA.

Inside the skytrain, which we took quite a few times. LOL.

Mh: Wah. V.happy can leave SGP.
Mag: Nonono. We v.happy can leave SGP without so many ppl following us.
Mh: I love Airports.
Mag: No link loh

* All of the above are inserted by me. which might be wrong from wat they were actually talking abt.

Our flights are leaving us!
Got No Show charge SGD150!!

We were there on the....

We are a funny bunch of ppl.
We stayed till abt 3.30
LOL.
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My present listttt.

From my parents.

From Gary Moh and Mag. Thanks soooo much. But where is the boy? Another Girl also can. They must partner mah. V.lonely de.

A chocolatey cake from my godfather.

A very very cute gift from Tziying. Mogu tou from Super Mario & a piggy bank.
I will fill it up with lots of money.
Thanks sooooooo much for it. Love it to bits.

Spongebob Squarepants from Yuni and Yuzhang. OMG LOH! i didnt expect them to give me something. Soooooooooooo nice of them. Which is why i love them to bits.

Thanks soooooooo much for the angbao from Mingyi.

Thanks soooooooo much for the angbao from Yuni and Yuzhang's Mum

Thanks soooooooo much for the angbao from Ajita's Mum

Thanks soooooooo much for the angbao from my paternal and maternal grandparents.

Thanks soooooooooooooooo much for the rest who sent me smses, msges on facebook and friendster wishing me a happy birthday.
(Zoey,Weiren,Melvin,Xiaowei,Candice,Lauren etc)

I feel soooooooooooooooo love by all of you.
At this point, i might die from the love that you guys send.

*

Im planning to buy N76 for myself,
as a birthday gift to myself.
Hahahaha.

N76 and the cruises 's photos to be uploaded later.
Im afraid of flooding blogger. ><

To those who are reading the blog,

I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Happy birthday to me. :)

Rather Senseless entry. Bleah~

2007-10-01T02:05:00.000+08:00

I have like lots of things to do before i go on my leave.
Im feeling like,
There isnt enough time in the world for me to use.
/:

I have like tons of bookings to follow up.
Lets hope that my boss dont turn up at work tml.
So i dont have to answer phone calls,
so i can follow up my work properly.

Things to do before going overseas,
Paint my nails black.
Haha. I <3 black.
which is a very tedious job.
I have to wait for them to dry,
and gotta paint them nicely. ><

I have to convert all my videos to MP4 format,
So i could put them in my ipod,
and watch them during the trip when i get bored,
or before i go to bed.
I dont fall asleep easily on a bed that is not mine.
Watching stuff helps~

*Self reminder:
To charge my Ipod + Cellphone. Bring along Ipod charger.

I have to make sure my grandparents bring the right medication along.

I have to pack my bag.

TONS of stuff to do.
__________________________________________________

My latest Addiction,

LOL.
The facebook.
And that is my flufffriend.
His name is McTofu
Named after McDreamy. hahaha
It is damn addictive.
Everyone to go try it out!
__________________________________________________

I bought this young man out the other day,

Then, there was this indian salesman,
he walked up to me and said,

Indian Salesman : "Miss, how old is your child?"
*points to him

/me gives a piercing glare

Me : "HE IS NOT MY SON LA!"

/me quickly walks away.

我变老了啦!
我都还没有 21 岁咯！
还有多几天吗。
妈的！

*非常生气

We went to buy lots of candies,
and i created sugary pack for my collegue.
As a token of appreciation for wat they have done for me over the year.

可爱吧？
______________________________________________

Some random pictures i took from the inside of my room.

So long nv blog liao. Lots to say.

2007-09-19T23:16:00.000+08:00

First of all,
A msg for a friend of mine.
You know im toking abt you.
You took off w/o leaving a proper explanation.

What i wanna say is,
It is your choice, i respect that.
At least i think i knew what was going on.
The stress the company is putting on you.

But there are others who care.
So, no matter what you do,
Keep us updated, take and stay safe.

"Help will be given to those who asked" - Lord Jesus.

*im not a christian, and this was told to me by someone.
i just simply think that it makes sense.
You always have your family and frends around you,
and if you seek help and understanding from them,
im sure they would not refuse.
______________________________________________________

Well,
as for update in my life,

The thought of resigning is popping out in my mind again.
Due to a few certain reasons.
My boss is as unreasonable before.
There wasnt any improvement thou.
See the repeat pattern going on.

Plus the newly appointed AM.
I cant really point a finger at him,
saying where did he went seriously wrong.
The new AM is always busy.
Busy with what? I have totally no idea.
Things to be complete a week ago,
apparantly he didnt.

His way of changing the whole situation here,
is abit extreme i think. Personally for me.
He should have mingle with us abit.
Get to know us well 1st,
before he starts to change our system here.
That will seem abit harsh to me.

Another reason being is,
The ticketing officer.
Well, our boss has been comparing our sales with hers,
Hers is coporate sales, but us,
we deal with walk-in
I just think that it is not apporiate to do so.

Hais.
Maybe Resigning is the only way out.
I should go back to designing.
____________________________________________________

Speaking on of designing.
I saw the house of Ralph Lauren Collection Spring/Summer 2008 collection
And its their 40th Anniversary!
OMG!!
I love it to bits.
Here are afew of a favourite pieces.

A total classic "Hollywood" look. Well, Ralph Lauren always create the traditional American look.

Love the hat. Love the cape-like details on the sleeves with black trimming. Love the huge bow. This is my most favourite piece.

I like the flower thingy on the model's head which link v.well with the dress. Love the frilly layers.Love the neckline + the gorgeous prints.

This is my 2nd Favourite piece.I love the skirts to bits. Like the material choosen. It is totally wearable on all events.

I love the high neck collars. Love the blue. The puffy sleeves. But its very office wear thou.

My 3rd favourite piece. It gave me a v.baroque feel to it. Plus the shiny texture, it might be organza. Love the skirt~

Well,
I think,
It is a very tight collection, if you seen all of it.
The flowers, the prints and the hats.
It is very Ralph Lauren - like.
His idea of how American sophiscated ladies should be like.
It has style yet collaborated with daily wear.
He made Haute Couture wearable.

This sums up my idea of his collection.
I shall view other more designers and post it up here.
__________________________________________

Well, the feedback from my previous birthday gifts list was that,
Wah, why all very ex de?

Im going to be thickskin,
and repost again.
HAHA. (artifical laugh)

This time round,
im going to list it from "need" to "want"
In chinese, 排名有分先后的啦~

Cost = SGD55
I need a Ipod Earpiece, my previous one was damaged.
Till the extend that i have to use white tape to fix it.
Like Harry Potter using tape to fix his glasses.

Cost = SGD30 to SGD40
LOL. A nice meal at Ikea makes me a very happy girl. ^^
You could always make a happy day for me if you could buy me a few candles and a few nice cups from Ikea.

Cost = Abt USD50
It is a want for this.
Im a die hard fan of Grey's Anatomy.
* See nxt item too.
Even thou Channel 5 is airing them now, i would like to have it for my personal collection. LOL.

Cost = USD19.95
hahahaa.
McDreamy is the one,
2nd from the most top left hand corner.
* Refer to the previous picture.

This ends my list.
Besides all this,
and still yet you dont know what to buy,
Cash is the most preferred partner for me.
You could take part in serveral fundings im hosting now.
Like Nintendo Ds Funding, Cruise Funding and School Funding.
lol. X:

*

Well, somethings to feel elated is that......

Grey's Anatomy Season 4 premier is on the 27th Sept,
which is abt one week's time from now.
YAY!

Another great news,
Congratulations for Grey's Anatomy,
espcially for Katherine Heigl (Izzie) for winning Best Supporting Actress in the Emmys Award.

Plus,
In abt 2 weeks time.
Im going on a leave!!
Going for a Cruise!!
A very much awaited break.

/me starts counting down now.
haha

Verbal Vomit.

2007-09-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

我也不知道该从何说起。
我有一肚子的不满于伤心。

我要该这样说，别人才会明白。

*

我问他。
我的生日快要到了。
买礼物了没？还没的话。。。
现在，存钱去买礼物还来得及。
他的答案是：“我没买，也不打算买”

我明明知道他是不会给我任何东西的。
也很清楚他是从来不会给任何人礼物的。

可是，我却偏偏之讨苦吃。
我只是希望，
一个小小的奇迹会发生。
真是，异想天开，啊我~
就好像，在自己的伤口上撒盐是一样的道理

或许是我要求他太多了吗？

*

这可是我的二十一岁的生日。
可是，
我却觉得，
我好像一事无成。
什么都不是。
我现在的人生，根本不是我要的。

我却觉得，
自己的人生很可悲。

我中觉得，
我每一次都是在作别人的陪角。
而我,会把每个人当成是我的中心点。
把他们当成我生命里的主角。
可是，也有些时候，
我也会想要当当莫些人的主角啊。。

他们说，
越是开心的人，越是笑的大声的人，
其实，
是最寂寞，最难过的。
因为，他们只是想掩饰自己的不满而已。

我想也是。
每一次笑完过后，
回到现实来，的辛酸，
是很痛苦的。

不要看我整天都是这样的笑，
把自己当小丑耍赖耍去的。
有谁是要把自己当小丑来耍的。

haiz.

如果，她还在，还没死，
我想大概我也不会这样难过。

如果，她没死，
她会买很多生日礼物给我。会陪我过生日。
日子像以前一样。

有些时候，
我真的很希望死掉的人是我。
最起码，我现在也不会过得这样痛苦。
一刀，狠狠的割下去。

死了，一了百了。
反正，人都会死的嘛。
只是，迟早的事。倒不如，早死的好。

*

This blog entry end up in tears.
No mood to blog.

Birthday Present List

2007-09-09T13:06:00.000+08:00

I so long nv blog leeeeeee.
hahaha.
V. busy

Busy watching 还珠格格 and 天地男儿。
lol
张智霖很帅 loh!

Anyway, the main motive of the entry is to let all of you know what i want for my birthday.
So you guys can get me the right things,
(and i will use them)
or
get me the wrong things
(and they will get chucked aside in my cupboard.)

Here goessss.

Gucci Wallet

Price = Unknown.
Sponsor = None.

Hermes Wallet

Price = Unknown
Sponsor = There might be one. TBA

Loewe (Amazona Bag)

Price = A few k at least
Sponsor = None. 有就好咯！

N76 (Black)

Price = SGD438
Sponsor = Hopefully my parents.

Nintendo DS Lite (Black)

Price = SGD300+ SGD400 (the last time i saw it)
Sponsor = None

"A" Necklace from Tiffany & Co

Price = A few hundred i think
Sponsor = None

*

LOL.
I know.
I 狮子开大口。

But u guys could always,
"donate" into my funds for the above objects.

小女子就先在这里感谢大家了！！

2007-08-31T13:40:00.000+08:00

I fucking hate NATAS +
pre NATAS fair.
its making us fucking busy loh.
not much staff inside the office,
but the phone kept on ringing like nobody's biz.
we have to keep on update files + discount list.

We are like slogging our guts out,
but it is not us who enjoy,
and not us who earn the big money here.
_________________________________________

Anyway, remember my previous post abt the Esprit bag i want.
LOL.

I went to pester my whole family for it.
And so they all chip in.

VIOLA~

I got my Esprit bag.
Well,
i will think of something eles
for the rest of you to chip in,
to buy for my Birthday!!!

Pictures later. ^^

我爱台北！！

2007-08-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

我要到台北去啦！
我要到台北去花新台币。
我要到台北的士林夜市吃超大鸡排，台北的 Icekachang，珍珠奶茶和其他又便宜又好吃的东西。
我要到台北的士林夜市买它超便宜的假的名牌货。
我要到台北去吃 NT399 吃到包。
我要到台北的西门丁去拍大头贴，看帅哥，看少男系美女。
我要到台北的西门丁做指甲。（超便宜的！）
我要到台北去做它们的捷运，要有自己的悠游卡。
我要到台北的五分浦去买超多的东西回来！
我要到台北去吃台北的鼎泰奉。
我要到台北的 101 去买我的 Agnes B 包包。
我要到台北的蛋蛋屋吃 Brunch。
我要到台北去吃广东煮。
我要到台北的 7-11 去买奶茶回来！！
我要到台北的九份去买果冻，贝壳 Etc etc
我要到台北的绕和夜市吃甜品。
我要到台北的成品书店看书看到天亮
我要到台北的新光三月等啊沁
我要到台北的淡水买铁蛋
我要到台北去小猪的店买东西，等小猪。
我要到台北去吃 Mister Donut
我要到台北去八大找小鬼。
我要到台北大安公园等小猪和杰伦打篮球

我要到台北去就是了啦！
Can someone sponsor me a trip to Taiwan this birthday??
_______________________________________________

My secret plan is coming up nicely.
One of the 3 major part is done.
Part 2 i think shouldnt be a problem.
But Part 3 is a major one,
that is to seek their approval
and go according to my plan.

Lets keep our finger cross.
________________________________________________

Anyway,
I like you.
But i dont like your frends yah?
I still think your frend stole my hp b4.
And i dun like her faking her voice so high,
and her dyed hair.
Chao Ah lian.
/:

Pics Galore + Super Long Random Rants X:

2007-08-23T10:27:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..
I feel unwanted by my own company.
Even thou im a part timer,
I consider myself as a full time - part timer.
Know why?

I work the same hours as a full time, job scope is the same as a full time,
just tat my pay is slightly higher than normal full timers.
I work 9 to 5 / 1 to 9. same as those full timers,
But the recent product briefing list,
my name wasnt included.
But the other part timers were included.
It is not a matter of whether, im dying to go to all these product briefing or not,
As a matter of fact, i find these "meetings",
are purely a waste of my time. really.
But i feel rather "invisble" to my boss.
No matter, how much sales i have got, or how many Japan/Korea grps,
Im still a part timer.

Bosses are hard to please
Maybe i shld resign. :/
_____________________________________

Anyways,
my ipod earpiece is spoilt.
Guess how much a new one cost?

freaking SGD55

Sigh. My birthday is approaching loh.
hahaha
It is meaningless if i dont have a Ipod without the Ipod earpiece. -.-
Besides tat, im aimming one of the esprit bag.
It cost SGD79.90
LOL

Those interested can drop me a msg,
to chip in my "bag fund"
______________________________________

Watched High School Musical 2 last nite on Ipod.
I still prefer High School Musical 1.
Its always like that, the original one is always better than the new one.
Just like Harry Potter. ^^

Zac Efron
Eww. I dont like him.
I always think that he looks like some guy who came out from the 1970s.
Like Grease.
Yuck.

I prefer Corbin Bleu better.
And his name always remind me for the dish called
Cordon Bleu. hahahaha.

Hahaha.
If i and him get married,
our kid would have the hair of a entire afro village.
:/
Poor kid.
/faints.

*

After watching HSM 2,
I rewatch The L word 3.

OMGGGGGGG
I miss Shane sooooooooooo much.
I would give anything to have her here.
lol.

SOT LE ME! x:

Shane <333

Queen of my life

Like what is the whole show is abt,
Gay Pride!!

Pride Flag

OMG.
Am i like, too open abt this?
-.-
heck.

I happened to came across this site.
Post a Secret?
It is where you post your secrets.
Your identity will remain a secret.
So you could say watever secret you have,
if you manage to break thru your barrier.

Post it in a postcard form. I found two tat interests me alot.

It says on the card:
"we are both girls. i like Ren, she likes me. that's when God come into the picture, and it hurts like hell"

*

V.meaningful hor.
Ppl judge everything. everything
Stop juding as if u r god.

There is also a international site.
Post Secret
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A super duper list of Hateful Customers

1. Customers who are rude and cut Q.
Im serving someone, you cut in, i will glare at u.
Are u blind that you cant see im engage in a conversation with someone eles.
And it is v.rude of you to cut in.

2. Customers who ask stupid question.
*Refer to previous post.
Ask stupid questions like, can i bring my pots and pans to Genting and cook my own meal.
You want to die inside Genting oso none of business yah.
Stupid questions like, can i take a coach to BALI?
Yah, You wan row a sampan to BALI also can.

3. Customers who call us up just to chat with us
Pls go call some helpline.

4. Rude customers cum i-pay-alot-and-expect-gd-service attitude + Know-it-All Customers.
You nv hear b4 good service begins from you meh?
You are rude you expect us to be nice to you?
Worst still, when u r rude, and u act like a know-it-all attitude.
If you know everything, y still come to us?
And when we explains the T&C , you cut us in. Later anything happened you blame us for not explaining?

5. Customers who ask the prices for nxt year Christmas departure.
HELLO! you need to be so super kiasu mah.
Nxt year CNY is not even insight loh.
Nvm leh, when we say the price is not available, you ask for the current price.
It's a simply waste of my time yah? And nxt yr you come,
is either im not working here anymore,
or either you wont come back to my company anymore.
Go waste someone eles's time.

6. Customers who wants us to jump thru fire hoop for a miserable SGD100+ sales.
HELLO! It's not like we earn thousands out of you.
You tml departure, you want us to call the hotel, confirm for you the ferry transporation.
Er. I can see my australia sales running away from me.
BECAUSE YOU ASK TOO MUCH OF ME!
I only earn peanuts ok.

7. Customers who ask us each and every package we have and book nothing.
I think by the time you finish asking, you can have my job.

8. Customers who think that they used to book from us alot and expect discount.
I give discount without permission, im going to get scoldings.
Are you going to get scolded for me? Are you going to face my boss for me?
No rite? Then shut up.

9. Customers who complain alot on small tiny stuff.
You complain so much that i begin to think that nth satisfiy you anymore.
go get a life,dude.

10. Customers who expect you to answer on the spot, and if you dont, that means you are new and you dont know anything.
Like hello~
Even computers have times where they hang on us, and server down. Takes more than 5 mins to show the things i require mah.
And when we answer you on the spot, you will doubt our answer.

11. Customers who sit in front of me and chat non-stop(not related to any tours) or act lovey dovey in front of yours truly
M i invisible to you? You tok non-stop you block my way. you know!
你挡住我的财路，你知道吗！
Then u act lovey dovey, you not paiseh ah? zzzz

Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with these customers?
But there are better and nicer customers,
those are damn rare loh.
like one out of ten.
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Its record breaking-blogging.
I have been blogging since this morning the moment i step into the office.
And its like 2pm.
and i haven had my lunch.

*Out for lunch

伤心

2007-08-19T15:53:00.000+08:00

Recently im into 李圣杰's songs.
Here are two that i find it v.nice.
and rather close to me. /:

痴心绝对
李圣杰

想用一杯latte把你灌醉
好让你能多爱我一点
暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
早有人陪的你永远不会
看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
你又狠狠逼退我的防备
静静关上门来默数我的泪
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

看见你和他在我面前
证明我的爱只是愚昧
你不懂我的那些憔悴
是你永远不曾过的体会
明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
直到那一天你会发现
真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
曾经我以为我自己会后悔
不想爱得太多痴心绝对
为你落第一滴泪
为你作任何改变
也唤不回你对我的坚决
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最近
李圣杰

你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
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我也有做过错事。
我也有对不起她过。。
可是现在要晚会，要去拯救，
也太迟了。。
一言难尽。
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Terrible things happened!!

I shouldnt have say tat i've got a secret plan coming up lahhhhh.
Because,
something happened to my plan.
Im so upset.....

-_________-

Happy Birthday JY!!

2007-08-17T10:43:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday JY!!!
You have come a long long way.
May all your wishes come true. :3
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OMGGGGGGGG

I have a big plan coming up.
But i cant say it out loud leh.

Bcuz once i tell others,
the plan will fail.
(it usually happend to me)

omgggggggg
Keeping a secret is so harddddddd can.
Im bursting out liao.

I will tell you guys when the time has ripen.
^^

Random rants + stupid fucked up customers.

2007-08-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

Today my momo made baked rice.
I made her to.

YUMMY~

Because, after i have discover the wonders of MOBtv
I started to download Next Stop.. Bon Appetite.

Whahaha. Then they showed abt this Hongkong Cafe,
where their baked rice look pretty nice.

So. i got my mum to bake me one. HEE.
It was really nice. I brought to the office,
Even Candice and William said it was nice.
William once commented my shepherd pie suxs.

I think u suxs too. X:

Anyway,
digress abit.
Speaking of Shepperd,
Ch5 is showing Grey's Anatomy Season 3 every wednesday at 10.30PM.

Totally OMFG. can.
Ch5 is so slow. I already watch the whole of Season 3.
and im like waiting for Season 4 to air on ABC.
Why Shepperd got link with Grey's Anatomy leh?

Because McDreamy = Dr. Derek Shepherd = totally hot. X:

McDreamy

But i like Izzie best. :3

I cut Denny's LVAD wires

She is such a poor thing.
She cut his LVAD wires to save the guy she loves.
In the end that guy still died.
Those who watch the show would have know this.

I wanna cut someone's LVAD WIRES!!
I wanna go SEATTLE to see Seattle Grace Hospital.

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Rants abt some weirdo customers.

cus: 龙洞 (some place in china) iszit some dragon from the sea stay before?
me: huh? os: WTF.
me: i dont know. mayb. mayb not. how am i suppose to know?
cus: you been to kunming before? seen the 洞 before? wat color ah?
they got put lights to make it red and green rite? originally wat color?
me: I nv go Kunming before loh. So i dont know wat color. You say is wat color
then is wat color loh.
cus: china got huang(yellow) shan rite? then china got RED COLOR mountain anot ah?
os: SIAO KIA. Losing paitence le loh.

LOL. crazy guy. so i purposely hang up the phone.
That crazy guy call like another 3 times to ask the same things loh.
Damn irritating can.
So i got Yanhui to transfer me tat call.

me: uncle ah. wat you wanna ask? you call us alot of times le leh. here nobody been to kunming b4 lah. so we dunno your 龙洞 is wat color de ok!
cus: i ask one question can anot ah
(he end up asking alot i tell u.)
cus: Three Gorges also haf 龙洞 rite?
me: ya lah. on this planet earth got alot of 龙洞. you wan go where see is your problem.
cus: one more question, can u help me find the cheapest tour to china to see RED
COLOR MOUNTAIN anot ah?

me: (damn fucking angry) CHINA DUN HAVE RED COLOR MOUNTAIN LAH. YOU WANT ISZIT? YOU
TAKE MRT TO REDHILL MRT GOT LA. WE DUN HAVE CAN!!!!
*非常生气。

cus: but xxxxx travelling agency have leh.

me: THEN YOU GO BOOK FROM THEM LOH!

cus: but batu bahat (in malaysia) got RED COLOR MOUNTAIN loh.

me: UNCLE. YOU WANT! YOU GO TAKE MRT TO REDHILL LAH. WE HERE DUN HAVE LA!!
OTHERWISE YOU GO BOOK FROM THEM LAH!!!!
BATU BAHAT IN malaysia loh. Now you asking CHINA leh.
CHINA IS CHINA. MALAYSIA IS MALAYSIA.
NOT THE SAME DE!!!

-__________-

he finally kup my phone.
LOL. This customer 吃饱太有空了。。

NVM.
This isnt excatly the worst yet.

Got one customer ah.
I tell you. She totally no EQ. Dont know how to manage her emotions.

She wanted to sue us, wanted to report us to the newspaper,
You wanna know why?
Because of two fucking miserable travel bags.
And its not like our travel bags are from Louis Vuitton or Prada.

Somemore she booked a Free and Easy tour.
Pls loh. You go ask around,
which travel agent gives you travel bag if you book free and easy from them.

*ROLL EYES

I mean, go ahead and sue loh. go ahead and report.
I think when the news report,
You will be ashamed of yourself.
You could afford a 2k 3k trip overseas,
you make so much noise bcuz of two travel bags?

The customer even manage to get our director's name and hp number
(according to her la hor.)
After double checking, apparantly our director did not recieved such calls.

cus: Your director, say only two travel bags only mah. anything lah. give lah.
cus: you afraid of your director iszit? tats y u refuse to give.

If you are at my office, i will give you two tight slaps.
1st of all,
none of the staffs will be tat stupid to give away our director's number.
Bcuz we know if we do so, we dont have to work anymore.
We will get scoldings on the spot.

Secondly,
We called our director, she said she did not recieved such calls.

You are just saying a outright lie loh.

* ROLL EYES.

What the hell is wrong with customers these days?

你们是没长脑,还是脑子里长霉啊！

I love RISK !!!

2007-08-12T14:33:00.000+08:00

I love RISK!!

Recently, im v.into RISK.
and its a v.nice game. haha

LOL. I LOVE RISK.
Here is my troop. (Below)
Im a sadistic.

Victory is MINE!!!

After being so proud of winning.
I LOST TERRIBLY!!!
and it bcame a ,
ONE MAN LAND!

I still lose. lol.
Bcuz i play half heartedly. ><
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I was at the wake of my dad's godmother.
It reminded me alot of my granddad(maternal) and hers

It is rather bad for me to put it this way,
Im upset because,
I saw my dad so upset.

i hate it when i see ppl close to me so upset,
it really affects me

And another reason is that,
it reminded me greatly of the other funerals that i have been to.
Unforunately those i attended,
were rather v.close to me.
I was v.fond of them.

Hais.

她已经死了四年多了。。
可是，
这一切所发生的事，
就好像昨天一样。

她的丧礼，好像都是我一个人在办。
四天连续没睡。

But the saddness is eating me alive.
Sometimes i still wish that,

如果，是我有了 cancer. 她就不会死了。
她不应该死的。。

I wish i were dead.

Happy Birthday Singapore!!

2007-08-10T02:17:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Singapore!!!!
I know its abit too late. I wanted to blog b4 midnight.
But was bz with a board game.

I think at the end of June, early July.
One of my collegue happened to serve this pair of angmoh brothers.
Who happened to come to Singapore for holiday bcuz their dad is here.
They will be back in Feb 2008 again.

How would i know?
Because, when they were here last month,
I asked for their msn address.
I added them. But for a month, he wasnt online.
But few days back, he msned me.

LOL.
He totally look like Harry Potter.
Except his hair is blond and not browish black.
But he has blue eyes.
Wanqing was like saying,
his britsh accent make me look and sound more convincing.

He said tat he get the "Harry Potter" thing quite often.
LOL.
he tried to flirt with me using this point.

But sad to say, Im not really a big fan of Harry Potter.
I like FRED and GREOGE WEASLEY the best!!!

Im still v.upset that Jk Rowling killed FRED.
That is just pure evil.

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B4 i begin to rant abt how nice the game is,
I would like to clarify some things. Abt the previous post.
People would ask,
they were backstabbing me, how would i know?

Here is why.
They were in the toilet happily gossiping and backstabbing abt me and jialing.
But they didnt know that, i was already in one of the cubicle,
overheard the whole conversation.
You would say,

"voice only wat?! wat if it is someone eles?"

Does every office has the same name and voice?
And their voices isnt that hard to reconise yah?
One of them has a rather loud and sharp voice.
After they left, i followed back to the office.
I saw their backview.
How wrong can i get?

2nd Incident,
They were happily gossiping abt me and jialing inside the pantry.
Doors were closed. But their voices were loud enough.
I was outside using the computer.
I overheard the conversation.
Saw them coming out of the pantry afterwards.
How WRONG could i get?

* Note to self and to them,
Wanna gossip and backstab others? Pls do it in your own private time and private place.
Do it in the open, risk others hearing them.
Lower your volume.
Or mayb you would like to broadcast to whole company (sarcasm)
Or simply,
Dont backstab others.

And who is the hypocrites here.
In front of Jialing, dont there to point out her mistakes,
Pretend to be all nice and all.
And yet,
at her back,
You guys throw a few daggers at her back,
Thinking that she wouldnt know.

(Lingling dont be mad at me for saying this out,
bcuz i simply couldnt contain my anger)

To one of the LEEs,
when i just entered the company,
You were one of the nicest person ard to help me out,
I remember always buying chocolate and candy for you,
to thank you for helping me.

But really,
患难见真情。

I remember,
I was on mc two days, you followed up my booking.
You mess things up. Got the wrong thing.
Customers inform you to extend the hotel stay,
You extended it.
But u did not extend the flight tickets.

And your BF actually dare to say:

"Its your booking, its under your name, so you will have to bare the whole amount."

I was so stunned to hear this kind of stuff from u n him.
After a period of time,
things were not settled yet,
You saw me joking for once, and you told me:

"You not afraid that you have to pay alot of money?"
"你不会担心你的 booking 的hor."

At that point, i really feel like slapping you.
YOU were the one who gotten me into trouble.
Yet u dared to ask me this sort of question?
When i was crying like shit, having countless sleepless night,
were you there to see it?

NO.

I dont even dare to tell my parents that,
for that month i only got SGD200 for a monthly pay.
Do you fucking know that?

If you dont know anything,
dont fucking pass any judgement on me,
like you have known me for years.
Or at the least clarify your facts 1st,
b4 you accused anyone.

*
If any of the collegues, who happened to see this,
I dont blame you for taking sides.

Because as a human nature, 人的本性。
Human tend to believe those who "looked" weaker on the outside.
Human tend to believe those who looked better and prettier on the outside.

And so happened that yor took their sides,
and you are v.unhappy with wat i have said.
You could always leave my blog and not come back again.
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Back to the board game.
It is called - RISK
OMG. It is the nicest board game ever!
The Second mayb, its the board game called - Game of Life.

Risk is sooooooo much fun.
You get to conquer your own piece of land, your own army and troop.
HAHA.
And i got Europe and S.America at 1st.
After that Elaine got my S.America.
But i attacked her Africa.
Clara got the other part of America to herself.
Wilfred got whole of Asia and Australia to himself.
And of course, the ultimate winner is Wilfred.
He is the offical descendant of Hilter. ><

He won the game. And i lost. Sads.
But nvm, i will win him the nxt time.

Anyway, i hope he will get his army subsidise for his accident.
I mean,
he went thru all the pain and money to put on braces.
Imagine the pain and agony, the embrassment of the braces (it is fugly)
for like 2 yrs?
just to have it nice and beautiful for the outcome,
And one accident in his NS life ruined wat he worked for.
Imagine how much trouble and pain
(both mental and physical),
for him to accept the truth that he needed dentures,
for like, the rest of his life?
How is he going to kiss his gf nxt time?
If they were to make out, and his gf is gross out because of the dentures,
is SAF going to pay for it?
How is he going to face his peers and lecturers in University?
What if the dentures were to cost him, his inferiority to face others?
Nowadays, everything is so Image Conscience.
What if his clients were to know that he has dentures,
How would they think of him?
What if the dentures were to move around,
while he is giving a meeting to his peers and fellow collegues,
What will they think of him.
A small accident would cost a huge impact.

LOL. Im being overemo here.
But he is my brother, that we are toking abt.
I seriously think that, SAF should compensate him.
For the physical hurt and emotionally hurt they have cost him.

I have finish ranting. LOL.
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Im going to Central again tml.
Because the previous time i went there,
i did not have cash,
and its kinda ridiculous for such a huge shopping mall,
to NOT have any ATMS.
And the stores i went into,
DO NOT accept NETS or VISA/MASTERS.

生气啊！！！
Retail Therapy could always help improve my mood. ^^

i v. 生气！！

2007-08-08T14:44:00.000+08:00

u guys remember previously i have blogged abt this collegue who backstabbed me.

Well, there is some conflicts between the two of us.
But nvm.

If you were the one who got backstabbed, and the person require you to help her?
You think you will help her with no questions asked, or even help her willingly?

Knowing how bad the stuff she can say behind your back?

Pls loh.

Can you please go ask yourself what sort of thing u have said to hurt me first b4 you do anything mah?

If you deserve my respect, i will go all my way to help you.
But what have you done to deserve my respect?

Do you even want me to bring up what you said?
HAR?

- You said i dont deserve to lead Japan tour bcuz im a part timer.
You said i made use of my relationship with my supervisor and my bosses's daughter to get this tour.
You said i bootlick them

My explanination:
Hello? Are you fucking blind?
Pls go check my sales b4 jumping to any fucking conclusion.

*

(which bring me to my nxt point)
- You said i made use of the relationship i had with my supervisor and my bosses's daughter.
You said i bootlick them

My explanation:
FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU!
/me throws into a fit.
Seriously.
First of all, 我平我的实力拿到这个团的。
Secondly, I did not. I fucking repeat. In case your fucking small ears did not catch me.
I　DID NOT. I FUCKING DID NOT!!
You dont know the the relationship abt me and lingling, so dont fucking judge us.
Im the only one who dare to scream at Lingling in front of her customers for something she is wrong for.

I dont think i have the need to explain to you how is our friendship is like.
Because u r not fucking important to me.

*

- You said i like to cry.

My explanation:
What is fucking wrong with you?
Seriously.
I just cant help it if my tear glands are over active than the rest of my body parts.
And you dont know that when u said something, my brain process it, in a way that,
You say A, my brain is already at Z.
If you have a fucking problem with my crying issue,
It is not like im asking you to stare at me crying, you can always looks eleswhere.

(which bring me to my last problem)

- You said i did lesser work than you.

My explanation:
With all of the above said to me,
the hurt incurred to me,
Do you fucking think im willing to help? Dont your fucking small brain know how to process this?
Take a look at Charlie,
She isnt under my group, whenever it is her off day,
Im willing to follow up her work.
Do you know fucking why?

Take a look at Alice,
She is a part timer who come in at work only at 5pm.
Yet whenever i do morning shifts, i will to make sure the ops get her bookings,
and follow up
Do you fucking know why?

Bcuz they fucking deserve my respect and my help.

So now, im going to reveal who is the one who did all this.
Both of them, their surnames are LEE.

So to the LEEs,
FUCK OFF.
Stop messing with my life.
Both of u, yours life is a huge mess,
If you stop all this backstabbing, maybe your life could improve.

你没有拆到我的尾巴，我是不会得罪你的咯。
你们要基点口德。。知道吗。

Seriously.
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Anyway,
My poor brother, who is NS.
Kanna knock on his front tooth by his own amunition.

Then his tooth became horizontal instead of vertical.
He tore his gum got 2 stitchs.
The doctors all said that his tooth is dead.

I wish to curse and swear at SAF. but im afraid of being sued by them.
I think i will keep the curse and swears to myself.
Hope he will get well soon. :3
My poor brother.

My dad's 干妈过世了。
I used to remember during CNY, we would drop by her place,
and then, she will offer us lots of candy and swt drinks.

And i used to remember,that my dad likes to push angbao to her.
She always refuses our help to make her life better.
Then there will always be a tug of war of the angbao.
But my dad usually wins.

I will miss her.

Sigh.
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Im still v.生气！！！！！

Newer Layout. Im upset.

2007-08-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

Gotten a newer layout.
The coded are killing me.
Im starting to have flu again.

Y m i always sick?
I just gotten better from the TERRIBLE fever + sorethroat.
I barely even recover and yet again im sneezing my head off.

Must be that Gary Moh,
he could spread his germs over the intercom
Cuz he is always so weak. always sick. tsk.

Anyway,
My dad saw the letter my boy send me,
Knew that i already adopted him as my child.

He was livid.
He starting scolding in hokkien, thinking i dont know.

Seriously, i dont know what the fuck is wrong with him.
Isnt adopting a child a good thing?
Shouldnt my dad at the least praise me for doing something good,
like once in my life?
Is this how parents should react when knowing this?
I seriously doubt so.

If next time my child were to decide to adopt an child,
i would praise him.
Tell him how proud im of him.
Knowing that he has a heart to care for others,
esp those who are less forunate.

According to him, all this is scam.
He says that they are trying to cheat my money.
I know.
People would say that he care.
But he have to be so loud?
He have to scream on top of his head to tell me?
Say hurtful things on top of that?

Seriously, am i like a 3 yr old kid?
Do you seriously think that it never cross my mind that it might be a scam?

What the fuck. Seriously.

Do you (my dad) really think that i decide to adopt a child yesterday
and
*magic happens
Then the child is mine?

To tell you the truth, i have been of adopting for about a year.
Do you think that i have not been asking around or doing any research and i happily go adopt one just for fuck's sake?
Am i that fucking stupid?

To make things worst, my auntie was there commenting that it is expensive.
I mean,
Your husband earn alot loh.
What the fuck is wrong with my family?

Im really upset abt this loh. Seriously.
My dad even said that 我做不了大事。
It really hurts me alot.

Have i not proven myself enough to you?
I earn enough to bring you overseas.
I earn enough to give you money when you ask from me.
I was able to lead tour, bring over 30 people to some foreign country,
and bring them safely back.
I stopped studying so that your money problems could end, and you could be able to relax more than before.

You think i like to work?
You think i like to work and have ppl backstabbing you all the time?
You think i like to work and have stress from the sales i get?
你知道我做工，做到很不开心吗。。
Dont you ever thought that someone day i would like to go back into designing?
Where i could run free and design my own line and be a famous designer one day?

我想做不了大事的人是你。
因为你不可以给你的孩子，她想要的东西。

我很努力的在做你们想要的我。

可是，现在的我，并不是，我想要的我。
这样难过，
是不是，应该，就快死了。。

我想，
死掉了以后，
我会比现在快乐的多。

New Layout + Updates.

2007-08-03T01:40:00.000+08:00

Gotten myself a new layout.
Not very excited thou. Because the longer i see it, i feel that its abit too chessy for me.

For the past few days, i have fallen sick
Seriously sick.
You know once in awhile you get a cough or flu
But this was not like that.
My fever was like 39.9 degree.
I went to the doctor..

doc: "If your fever dont subside in two days time, you will have to 验血"
me: "har? so serious."
Then the doctor gave me an injection
(which i almost died on the spot ><)
Told me to see him in 2 days time

So i went home.
Went to bed, slept for a few hours,
woke up and saw everything in shades of yellow then i went back to sleep again.
I even slept at my mum's bed.
Because, when i was young, i only get to sleep on my mum's bed,
when im seriously ill.
This was one of the times. ><

My fever was burning the insides of me,
but on the outside,
its damn freaking cold that i dont even feel my fingers.
The food i ate usually end up in the toilet bowl as vomit.
There were times i dont know what im doing
(i did took my medicines twice as a mistake)
Too much medication, i think. haha

But im fine now.
I think my Lingling got my virus.
Im only left with a TERRIBLE sorethroat.
My mum is making me drink lots of water and 枇杷膏。

I owed my mum too much. Thanks mum.

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he didnt excatly 置之不理，不闻不问。
he did show that he cared at the least.

The thing is, if any other person fall sick he would do that too.
So, its not much of a big deal.
可是，我还是满在乎的，
要不然我把它写在这里干嘛。。
_______________________________________________________

Anyway,
my boy wrote me a letter!!!!!

I recieved the letter few days back.
Im so glad he wrote to me. To let me know more abt him.
I also returned his letter on Tuesday with some stickers for him
I hope he will like them. :3
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As for - Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

Here is my humble review. A tiny one.
Personally i think,
Jk Rowling still left us hanging there with things unmention and
guessing what will go on next.
But like what JK said in one of her interview,
Those Harry potter died hard fans wont quit asking
even if they knew who is Harry's great grand grand grand father.

And, as usual, her brillant self,
able to create the Deathly Hallows and the story behind Dumbledore and Snape.
I love Dumbledore's and Snape's story to bits.
Even thou in the 1st place i wanted Snape to be evil. X:

I intially wanted Harry to die. But then he didnt.
I wanted both actually. But the decision was made.
I will live with it.

It is a love-hate relationship.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

2007-07-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

I GOT MY HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS!!!!!!!!

Bz reading.
My review/thoughts will be up asap.

BYES people.
/dive back to reading

Adopted Son

2007-07-17T15:36:00.000+08:00

Recently, I have adopted a son.
Not excatly adopted to be accurate.
I sponsored one of them.

His name is James Clifford
A very nice name. Hahah

He is a Philippines.
He likes Green
He likes Maths
He is 10yrs old this year as 2007
His birthday is 25th June, a CANCER. (which is v.compatible to mine.)

Thats abt it. But i dun think im able to post his picture,
in order to protect his identity.

But the very nxt time he send me something i will post it up here.
I might get another boy from Mongolia and another girl from Mongolia too.

It is one of my wishes for my 21st birthday to adopt at least 2 child.
But it wouldnt harm me if i were to adopt more than 2. haha

Anyway, if you guys are interested in helping,
here is the link
http://www.worldvision.org.sg/
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updated. as per 4ish-pm

Mr. Moh made his subordinates take the sponsorship.
I used to think that he is a senseless git. i still do
Its just that it didnt occurred to me that he is capable of such thing.

As quoted from Hermione,
He only haf emotions range of a teaspoon,
as quoter from yours truly,
i dun think he is capable of such emotions.

LOL. im bad.

Aftermath

2007-07-16T09:56:00.000+08:00

The aftermath of her dad's death.
I hope she will be able to cope with it, as well as i hope her mommy will be able to cope with it.

Well, life.
There is so much uncertainty in life.
Sometimes i rather myself die..

Here is a song that is rather meaningful, by PINK called - Dear Mr. President.
I got to know this song thru The L word Season 4.
Just a side note, I juz completed the whole L word.
/me suffering from L word withdrawal sydromes.
i miss shane!!

Anyway, here are the lyrics.

Dear Mr. President
Come take a walk with me
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep
What do you feel when you look in the mirror
Are you proud

*How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why

Dear Mr. President
Were you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
Are you a lonely boy
How can you say
No child is left behind
We're not dumb and we're not blind
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pay the road to hell

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye
How do you walk with your head held high
Can you even look me in the eye

Let me tell you bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh
Repeat *

rather meaningful rite?
I mean no offence to any Presidents at all.
To me, not only it meant President or any great people.
It might be someone nxt door. She made you cry.
How is she able to sleep peacefully at nite.

sigh.
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Well, this is a rather long post.
Went to watch Harry Potter 5 - Order of the Phoenix.
Its erm..

Disappointing.
LOL.
Actually, im quite prepared to be disappointed by the movie.
So, im not that affected by the rest.

But the last part, where are fighting are, helps me quite alot.
As in to visualize them.

As for now, my life is greatly dependable on Book 7
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
As much as i want Harry Potter to live, i want him to die.
Because i dun wan myself to keep on thinking how his life will be after Book 7.
LOL.

Im so god damn contridicting. X:

Worst Fears..

2007-07-10T10:51:00.000+08:00

Something terrible happened..
One of my worst fears.
But im glad that it didnt happened on me.
Im not gloating over this.
It hurts me as much as it hurt her.

Maybe not as much, but i know how she feel.
To have someone so dear to you passed away.

If there is a god,
i would like to ask why is he so fucking unfair.
Good people die early and Evil beings fucking live so long.
They deserve to die.

Sigh. Life.
How i wish i was one to replace.
I wish i was dead.

Me Me!!

2007-07-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

It has been a long weekend.
Went to celerbrate Lingling and Yvonne's Birthday at Kbox.
We had a really great time.
I will upload the pics at a later time.

List 10 musical artists you like, in no specific order (do this before reading the questions below)!

1. Show 小猪
2. JJ 林俊杰
3. A*mei 张惠妹
4. Yong Er 泳儿
5. Tanya Chua 蔡健雅
6. Westlife
7. CoCo Lee
8. 柯有伦
9. Spice Girls
10. She

A. What was the first song you ever heard by 6?
- Against all the odds

B. What is your favorite song of 8?
- 零 and 最美的痕迹

C. What kind of impact has 1 left on your life?
- A very very huge impact apparently. You can learn alot from him.
He has been out in the entertainment business for like 11yrs. N he is only famous in these recent years. Alot to think/learn from him yah?

D. What is your favorite lyric of 5?
- Its from Beautiful Love.
这个瞬间随时都要崩塌
我没有其他的愿望
假如明天将消失了
趁现在我爱着
只想记着被你抱着温柔的感受

Love is beautiful So beautiful
我失去过更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手不要放手永远守护我

E. How many times have you seen 4 live?
- I think once, when she was in Project Superstar

F. What is your favorite song by 7?
- Baby, 对不起。It has a story begin it. When i and the other guy broke up, and wanted to patch back. He delicated this song to me.

G. Is there any song by 3 that makes you sad?
- 我要快乐。The title says it all. I want my happiness. What is the defination of happiness? It isnt as easy as it seems.

H. What is your favorite song by 9?
- Time goes by. I used to played it on loop when i was in NZ.

I. Why did you first get into 1?
- I was watching 娱乐百分百。 Then it suddenly hit me tat i adore this guy. He has a wicked sense of humour. Plus he's a really gd dancer. Your jaw will drop when u see him dance. He sings really well, even if he is dancing. Plus he is really a nice guy.
新好男人。

J. How did you get into 3?
- well, i juz admire her singing skills. :3

K. What is your favorite song by 4?
- 感应 and 卖火柴的女孩
She has a dynamic voice.

L. How many times have you seen 9 live?
- like none. when they were ard, i was like only 12. There was no way i got have been to London when i was 12 to see them perform live. /:

M. Is there a song by 2 that makes you sad?
- Not really. LOL

N. What is your favorite song of 1?
- Im going to put all of his songs ^^

O. How did you become a fan of 10?
- Not really a fan. I juz like their songs. Somemore one of 10 might be having a affair with my No.1
So i couldnt be a fan of 10. LOL
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One of my wishes is to spend a quiet birthday.
Over my past few birthdays, i have tried alot of different "pattern"
Hosting a chalet, treating my frends, small gathering with a few gd frends,
in my office etc.

Im so sick of all these.
So, i planned to "run away" this year. Bcuz i dun wanna be 21.
/:
I have plan to go overseas.
But apparently, i dun think my life wants it tat way, by creating lots and lots of problem for me.
一波未平一波又起。

My grandma needs a operation.
Which means i have to shift my Travel Fund to Family Fund.
But on the other hand, i really hope that my grandma would be fine.
I dun wan to go through another turmoil. Sighs.

Backstabbers 去死！

2007-06-28T12:00:00.000+08:00

I shall make this post abt ppl who backstab ppl.

This happens alot in our office and im very bothered by the fact tat there is.
Ppl who are like tat. Seriously.

There is this particular girl in the office thinks that i befriend with my boss's daughter is bcuz i wanted to bootlick them.

But the fact is, im not. SERIOUSLY!
Why i click with her so much, is because i feel and think tat we are of the same character. almost.
But we do have conflicts. And im the only one who dare to tok back to her.

And there is this particular girl, who has a problem with my crying problem.

FOR GOD'S SAKE!
I really cant help it that my tear glands are overactive than my other bodyparts.
WHATS WRONG WITH YOU! REALLY!

You dunno me well enough to judge me. So dun go ard passing judgement on me.
You freak.

真的！ GO GET A LIFE N STOP MESSING MY LIFE YOU PRICK.
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When i started this blog, i vowed to myself.
Not to blog abt office politics or
at the least not to harm anyone on my blog, verbally.
But this kind of things juz get me. REALLY.

Just leave me alone.

旧照片。

2007-06-24T19:41:00.000+08:00

Last night, i went to flip thru some of my pictures of me when i was very very young.
Like since the day i was born.

Surprisingly i was able to relate to almost all of the photos tat has me.
Like remembering i like the bedsheet very much because of the rabits, the toys i was holding on to.
But mostly, the things i could relate to was like the outfit i like alot. Or the very 1st bag tat i bought to my kindergarden.

LOL. I guess ever since young i was designated to be a fashio designer or at the least be something related to design.

Here are some of the pictures. Lets take a time capsule and go back to 60's - 80's

When i was very small..

A big grin on the 60's bedsheet.

Me and my great great grand something. I dun remember her title. haha x:

Yours truly~

我的爷爷 and me!

Lastly, my brother! LOL. he is going to kill me for putting this here.

My frend said tat all the pictures look like they were taken in the 60's. ><
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As a child, we always wants simple needs like more candy, more toys and more rest.
But,
As we grow older, all these simple needs turn into very complicated needs.
We want more complicated things like someone to love you, more business sales, we want more money(money itself is very complicate)

Sigh.

Sometimes it makes me think, what if my life has lesser complicated stuff, maybe i would be happy.

Sometimes it makes me think, how good it could be if i could just throw away and just die, how nice would tat be?

Just sometimes, i wish i was a child again and want simple things in my life, and lie in my dad's arm and sleep away.

心情不好

2007-06-21T23:08:00.000+08:00

昨天晚上我想了很多。。
一边哭着，一边想着。。

想了很久。
这个问题我想了，四年。。。

为什么死的会是她。。
不是我。

可以让我去替代她死掉吗。。

为什么？

柯有伦的最美的痕迹

2007-06-20T01:10:00.000+08:00

坚强对我来说是种奢侈品
未来的路总是毫不确定
人总是喜欢着欺骗自己
把所有的痛全部都埋在心里
把悲伤变成一首浪漫歌曲
镜子里面现在只剩自己
忽然天空下了一场好大的雨
它好像慢慢地把我打醒
谢谢你在我生命里留下了最深的痕迹
谢谢你在我生命留最美的痕迹
我们还是不相信永远还是不能确定
抱着你才会看见的奇迹
oh~要怎么才能继续
靠近靠近 oh~
谢谢你~谢谢你~真的只想说我爱你

这是 - 柯有伦的最美的痕迹
真的很好听。

坚强对我来说是种奢侈品

对我而言，坚强真的是一种奢侈品。。
哭了过后，要坚强。
坚强了过后，我还是会哭。

我想，我是从来都没有坚强过。。

*

My booking cork up again.
I was already v.depressed the night before.
It is like 雪上加霜。
I almost mutilate myself because of this booking.
I realise the seriousness of this problem,
if they were to buy a return business/1st class seat,
I dun think i can ever live thru it.

I have to resign.
I cant live thru this kind of fear.
Fearing your booking might go wrong any min.
每一天都活在恐惧中，是人的都会受不了。。

*

我活着的目地是死掉。
对我而言，人生的目地是要死。
不是吗？

读书 - 找工作 - 找老公 - 结婚 - 生小孩 - 养小孩 - 死掉。

我们大家的中点，不就是要死吗？
中间的痛苦，太多了。。
我们倒不如，就直接跳到终点。

死掉吧。
/cries.

Boredom.

2007-06-18T16:39:00.000+08:00

Im going to do one of the MEME things today. LOL.
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1. Where is your cell phone?
At office's drawer

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend?
If you take 小猪 as my boyfriend

3. Your hair?
Er. black?

4. Work?
Tour Executive

5. Your father?
Love him to bits

6. The room you're in?
My office?

7. Your pet?
Hamsters and my imaginary frends

8. Your fears?
Death, Insects and getting scolded etc.

9. What do you want to be in 15
years?
Married and a famous designer

10. Where did you hang out last
night?
Tampines's Mc

11. Eyebrow rings on the opposite
sex?
So gayish!

12. Where do you grow up?
Singapore

13. The last thing you did?
Told my customers to cancel their trip

14. What are you wearing?
Shirt and Skirt

15. What aren't you wearing?
Necklace? like wtf?

16. Your computer?
Belongs to my company

17. Your life?
Depressed.

18. Your mood?
Depressed.

19. Missing?
Missing Shane and my bed. And the L word

20. What are you thinking about right?
Er.. This will be v.long. Refer to the later part of the blog

21. Your car?
I wish i had one. I dun even haf a driving licsence. x.x

22.Last movie watched?
Fantastic 4

23. What did you dream of last night?
I got my lips pierced.

24. Name 3 things u wanna do
at this exact moment?

Sleep till i die.
Reborn my hair.
Go back home and not work

25. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:

Honey GreenTea
Polka Greentea
Mineral Water

26. Favorite color/s?
Black and Brown

27. Last thing that made you laugh?
Jialing n Tziying said that someone need brain surgery at the same time

28. Worst injury you've ever had?
Fell out of the bicycle and hurt my backbone at Sec1,i think

29. What song do/did you want played
at your wedding?
Currently it should be Tanya Chua's Beautiful Love

30.Favourite Person?
Shane McCutheon
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Im thinking of giving up now.
Hahahahaha
*laughs madly*

There isnt anything to begin with.
SO technically i got nth to give up on.
Its kinda eating me alive.

I realise whenever i haf a blog, my blog is like always cover with depression.
I guess i DO HAVE depression

*falls asleep

LINGLING IS　ＢＡＣＫ！！

2007-06-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

LINGLING'S BACK!!
MY GOSSIP PARTNER IS BACK!!
WOOHOO!!

lingling: i bet u miss my msn nudges rite? and u better tell me wat my presents are.
bcuz its killing me. when its killing me, i will murder u. GET IT DUDE? JUST TELL ME.

My collegue says my chinese suxs, and she burst out laughing while reading my blog.
/sads
I will improve my chinese 的！！！

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Went westcoast to BBQ/celerbration for my brother's POP.

My Bbq Marshmellows!!!

Didi with his marshmellows!

Here are some of the stuff we bbq. The cheese hotdogs is da best!!!

And dere was tis playground with the huge pyramid thing where there is alot of ropes for you to climb to the top.
It made me look at it the way Jenny Schter might.
Its like the peak of the pyramid is the food source, the ppl climding it are the carnivores.
Come to think of it, its quite eerie thou.
One of the more artsy pic my bro took. But the concept was mine.
My hands were too shakey to take pics after all the climbing. x.x

Well, i think tats abt it for my bbq. Haha. It juz ended. *poof*

i caught u staring..
wats wrong with u. *tsk*
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Tml is 台湾金曲奖。
我真的认为曹格会拿到最佳演艺男歌手奖。
and maybe 蔡小姐会拿到最佳演艺女歌手奖。
可是啊。。我不喜欢蔡小姐啦。。
im always accurate when it comes to this kind of things.

小猪这次没有被提名。超难过的。

2007-06-13T00:51:00.000+08:00

13th June is my brother's Passing Out Parade!!
WOOHOO!
Even thou Passing out Parade sounds weird, its like having a parade where people pass out?
Er, it doesnt really make senses to me.
LOL

We are going to have a BBQ celerbration on Thursday.
Its not like he is free from NS, it is tat he is free from BMT!
Something to celebrate.

Guys in NS stink. Really. They stink big time. ><
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Some of the stuff i bought from Japan.
There are still more to it, and i didnt took pictures of them. LOL.
They would haf flooded my blog.

The Pocky over in Japan has alot of variety. ALOT. even their gum is. They even haf Honeydew and Lychee flavours.

MANGO JELLY! its so cheap in Japan. Its like 98yen which is abt 1.20SGD. Here is Singapore is cost like 2.80SGD. O_O

LOL. SOME of the stuff i bought from Tokyo DisneyLand. ^^

Its called OMAMORI in Japanese. It is supposed to bring you gd luck. :3

One last pic. The love of my life!!
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*我不喜欢这种感觉。等待.
等待是漫长的。。
或许是我想太多了。
还是，她真的不会想。

2007-06-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

Im have a terrible terrible headache since like the start of this morning?

Its killing me.

我的头超痛的！！我想它快要爆开来了。
不只是这样而已~

今天，有一个同事的事，我来follow up.
他的客人简直没礼貌到加~

我要他把他的身份证传真到我们这里来~ 一大早就让他知道了~
要他在五点以前传真过来。他也说好的。
可是啊。。
他既让在 4。50pm 给我打来跟我说他没有传真机！
不只是这样！
他还在电话中凶我！一直很大声的骂我！
骂我说最后一份中才通资他。一下子说不用签证，一下子说要！我是电脑白吃。没有 fax machine. 没有scanner.
这也是我的错吗？我跟本不知道，你和我的同事到底发生了设么事咯。。
那，我就对他说：“ 小姐，你可以不要这样大声吗？这不是我的错咯。。我并不知道，你和我的同事发生了设么事情，现在你这样凶我干嘛。。这样也解决不了你的问题。。”

他听到了以后，他不但没有说对不起哦。。
他喊得跟大声列~ 说他说话并不大声
我把电话筒拿到离我的耳朵 5cm 都可以听到他。。

我真的没有看过这样无理取闹的人！
跟可恶的事，他把电话挂吊以后，我去找办法帮他。
另一方，也愿意换到明天早上10点。
他竟然说他可以把东西传真过来了！！！

这样，我刚才是给你白骂的了咯。。
气到我都要爆开了！气到我都哭了。。
当时，我就觉得我自己很可怜。。
我身来给你骂的吗。。

/我讨厌我的工作！！！！！！
/我要回去学 Designing!!!

FINALLY!!

2007-06-11T02:04:00.000+08:00

Finally!!
I've completed my blog! WOOHOO!
Its so tiring that i could juz flip on to my bed and slp rite now.
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Food for thoughts:

她很爱他。
她可以为了他做任何事。。
可是，他一点也不在乎她会这样想。
甚至，他也不知道她很爱他。。
她就这样的一直活在悲桑当中。。

她只得让我们去可怜她吗？她应该早就知道他是这样子的人，
就不因该越陷越深。

*我不想成为那个“她”

试试看。。

2007-06-08T23:52:00.000+08:00

刚刚才把 blog 弄的七七八八的。。
还好看吧？
可是，还没全弄好。。 ^^

好啦。。我要去做我最喜欢的一件事了。。
那就是，躺在床上看我的 ipod 啦！
在看：模范棒棒糖 and The L word.

881

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我开始有一点点的想念，想念最近跟我比较好的那两个家伙。。
一个在上海。。另一个今天刚刚飞到韩国去了。。

*难过